“Be Better, Not Bitter”

The thought, in hindsight, the totally life-changing thought came to me— I am going to choose to “Be Better, not Bitter” throughout this transition of my life. Although, the thought came to me, I still had to ACT on the thought (I am so grateful & thankful that I did).

I made a big choice—to be better, not bitter over the circumstances and words that were spoken over me which I had no control over. It truly was a divine intervention—all my life I was concerned of what others thought of me. How did they want me to be, do, act, and serve? Thinking back about my thoughts and the words that came out of my mouth: “I can be who you want me to be; I can be that person, mom, friend, etc.”

However, in hindsight how could I be anything? How could I be a good wife, mother, friend, or teacher? My whole life I had spent doing, performing and serving, but little did I know/realize that although I felt this brought joy and served others well- it was an endless cycle of emptiness, busyness, and I was not pleasant for anyone to be around.

I had a hole in my heart and in my soul that I was trying to fill--- an invisible hole on the inside. I did not think that anyone could see it and the most interesting thing was I did not even know it myself or see it. However, this hole was obviously apparent to all. An uneasiness, never resting me, it brought chaos and a lack of peace to me, my family, and my life.

I chose to be selfish (if you will) for the first time in my life. I purposed to take care of me, and desired to change the live the way I had lived all my life—pushing, hiding, and not allowing myself to feel my feelings and deal with unresolved issues in me. I set to discipline myself for 30 days and address the deep, dark places that I did not want to uncover.

What I discovered and saw was a glimpse of myself and realized that there was only one person in this world I can change, and it was ME!!!

Although, you have no control of the circumstances and words that have been spoken over you— You do have the choice to “Be Better, not Bitter” What do you choose?

I AM Intentional in my Thoughts, Words, and Actions. I wake up every morning and choose to be Awake, Aware, Alive, and Alert and Live Intentionally, Open with Margins in my Life. #g2g2day